Happy Birthday. to.. me...?

Yes, so yesterday was the day I was born. The day I came kicking and screaming into this world.
Little did I know that 34 years later this day would still end in tears...

I had an okay day. The older kids were in school and Eli and I just lounged around the house. I did not lift one finger, I played lazy Mom. I stayed in my jammies and we watched cartoons.
My mom sent me a beautiful arrangement of flowers, including my favorite, daisies. They smelled amazing.

My kids came home, gave me big hugs and sang to me...
After work my mom stopped by with a few gifts and a huge cheesecake. We had some and then my hubby got home.

We asked my mom to baby sit for a bit while we went to dinner, so we dropped off the boys and went to Outback.
We had a great waiter, he was very enthusiastic and told us lots of jokes. He even guessed I was 26, even tho I knew he was way under guessing to not hurt my feelings...

My mom texted me and said Eli had a fever so we rushed out of there to grab the boys and head home. When we got home I went in my room to grab a diaper which are located on a shelf next to my bedroom window..

When I got there and put my hand in to grab a diaper I felt a gust of heat. I looked over and noticed the curtain was funky, so I pulled it back...

BROKEN WINDOW, GLASS EVERYWHERE...

*SCREAM* - I ran out to the living room screaming, "We got broken into", L.J. instinctively grabbed his gun and went thru the entire house.

My heart was pounding so fast I couldn't even get my phone to turn on.

L.J. called the police and they arrived quickly, when the police got here they saw the blood. Whoever broke in cut themselves pretty bad...

"Is anything missing?" the policeman asked...

In my panic, I didn't even look.. I didn't notice anything. My jewelry, my laptops, my electronics, everything was still there.  Then L.J. said... "Our change jug"

See we have this OLD wine jug that we put our loose change in, well I had just emptied it for a fundraiser for VBS so there wasn't much in there, maybe $5 or so... That was the only thing missing!

The thief walked past a camera, an xbox, a laptop and stole a jug of change... So weird and it didn't sit well..

Anyways, there was blood all over the window and the sill, which they broke off... So the police officer called in forensics to take samples and finger prints...  I hope we can catch who ever did it. That would make me sleep easier...

The police seem to think that it was a teenage neighborhood kid. They pulled a plastic chair up to our fence to jump it, as its locked from the inside, and used a 5 gallon bucket to climb thru the window, which they threw not one but two pieces of concrete into, to break...

I am thankful we weren't home,
I am thankful they didn't break into the boys room,
I am thankful they didn't hurt my dog,
I am thankful they left my lap top.
And lastly I am thankful we are all safe.

My heart was hurting and I wished bad things upon the person, I even said out loud that I hope they bleed to death. But this morning I prayed that they were okay. And if they needed money that bad, I prayed some would come there way in a better form. I pray the Lord touch their hearts.

But dont think I do NOT have a gun nearby... I kept it in arms reach last night and will for a while. Dont think I wont be ready to use it. Dont think I WONT use it.

I have never felt so violated. And downright scared to death. I didn't sleep a wink.

I know it will get better, but right now, I am on edge and I am packing heat!

Happy Birthday to me, right??

I am going to try to take pics today to upload, cuz it was dark last night...
Can you believe this crime happened in between 7-9PM? Crazy!!

Quilt Along: Block 11

So I am trudging along with my Quilt along, we are now on block number 11 out of 13! I am so close!

The blocks are getting more difficult, this weeks was a real stinker! It took a lot of time and seam ripping to get it correct. But it is finished!

It is titled: Read Books All Summer

Looks simple enough, but it wasnt, trust me!

Here are my versions...

And here are my quilt blocks together so far...

Happy 7th Birthday Dakota!

Dear Dakota,

I wanted you to know that before I had you, I had a different outlook on life. Before you, I didnt really understand life in general.

Sure, I was a mom, a wife, I worked full time, I went through daily living. But I didnt know. I didnt know what I know now. And it isnt something I can explain. Every other mother or father of a child with special needs, understands. But explaining it to someone else is  impossible.

See, as you were growing in my womb, you were growing into something so totally special! And I didnt know. I rubbed my tummy, I sang you to, Skylar and I told jokes to you, and daddy even whispered softly to you. I often wonder if you remember these moments.

And then the day you presented yourself to the world. I was not afraid. I was so strong and stoic. I was so happy! I watched the tears and fears of others and wondered if they saw the same boy as me? I was proud of you already! I knew you were chosen for me, and me for you. I knew at that moment, we were both chosen for greater things. I knew - you were going to change my world.

When I first heard the words Down syndrome enter my life,I wasnt afraid, but I did avoid it. I wasnt sure what to do with it, it sounded weird passing my lips. Today, its as common as any other word for me. And I still dont fear the future. And that is all because of you! My precious son! You have a way of taking my heart out of my chest, hugging it and laughing with that infectious laugh and putting it back whole. My heart that jumps out of my chest when you are trying to be brave, doing something new. My heart that breaks when someone stares or whispers. My heart that skips a beat when you reach for me to hug me or kiss me.

I am not sure if you know this, Dakota, but baby you are amazing. Everyone who meets you and knows you, LOVES you! You sure dont say much, but you dont have too! One look at those beautiful blue eyes, the sparkle that radiates from them... well we are fallen hook, line and sinker for you!

I hope one day, I can be the mom you think I am. I know I am not perfect, but do know I am always trying my best and I will protect you til the very very end! You are my best friend. And I will always be yours.

Today marks the day 7 years ago, when I got one of the most precious gifts in my life. How can I possibly thank God enough for you? I know that I cant. But I will do whatever it takes to make sure you are taken care of and loved more then you could ever fathom.

Happy Birthday, Handsome!

Love Mommy

Quilt Along: Block 10

The quilt square for this week required a lot of cutting, measuring and sewing! But it is my favorite one yet.

I actually had the corners meet, which has been bugging the heck out of me since I started. And I dont even know what I did different!! Sheesh!

This weeks block is called: Ride the Roller Coaster

And here are mine!

Check out them corners! Oh yeah!!

Quilt Along - Block 9

These blocks are getting more difficult and I STILL cant seem to make the corners meet! I tried really hard this time! Sigh!

Here is block number 9 - entitled Meet me at the Fair

And here is my version:

Why Yes, that is a white fuzz on my blue square... Thanks for noticing :)

Proud that I made the correct cuts to make all the lines the same way!

Publix Trip - 8-2-12

Whew, havent had a great week in a while! This week was awesome - minus how I got treated at the register! I had a coupon natzi! She questions just about every coupon I had, and wouldnt let me split my orders to use competitor coupons like I usually can. I will NOT be going through her line again! Ugh!

Took me almost an hour to just check out!

Anywho Here is the totals:

Spent: $105.08
Saved: $106.67

Here is what I got:

1 - Jenny-O Turkey Tenderloin
2 - Jenny-O Ground Turkey
3 - Perdue Boneless Chicken Breast
1 - Boneless Pork Chop
1 - Turkey Breast
2- Bagged Salads
1 - Precooked Bacon
2 - Smuckers Uncrustables
2 - Oscar Meyer Lunchables
1 - Publix tub o butter
1 - Betty Crocker Hash Browns
1 - Birds Eye Steam Fresh
20 - Yoplait Yogurts
6 - Uncle Bens Boil In a Bag Rice
4 - Boxes of Barilla Pasta
2 - Boxes of Protein Bars Nature Valley
1 - Box of Cascadian Farms Organic Granola Bars
1 - Box of Apple Jacks
2- Boxes of Krave Cereal
1 - Large Coffee Creamer
1 - LB of Tomatoes
2 - Arnolds Potato Breads
8 - Progresso Soups
4 - Ragu Spaghetti Sauce
3 - LBs of Bananas
4 - Del Monte Canned Veggies
2- Motts Apple sauce Squeezers
4 - Motts Applesauce Single Serves 6 Pack
2 - Boxes of Krusteaz Muffin Mix


So all in all I filled my entire trunk! And my kids were super happy about the apple sauce and yogurts!

How well did you do this week??